My History With Porn

April 30, 2007 by Leave a Comment

Before I get started I just want to mention that I’ve been organizing my thoughts for a while on how I want to discuss this subject. I’ve been praying for courage to share my story. Yesterday at NewSpring I was reaffirmed by Clayton King’s message (if anything ever happened to Perry I would love to see Clayton lead NewSpring). The message was on Tolerance vs. Truth. I was reaffirmed that what I’m about to do on this blog is very difficult for me but is tough love for some who might read it. It is time for me to be bold and truthful on the subject of porn.

My story, as I see fit to share it, is going to mess everyone up. I’m calling it My Porn History for a reason. If you only read G-rated material you should probably change the channel. There’s no profanity, but I put in to words what a lot of people are already thinking or wondering or just need to know.

I think I was about four or five years old the first time I remember seeing something inappropriate (porn). My sister and I were flipping satellite channels on TV (back when a satellite meant you had a NASA dish in your yard) before our parents came home from church – dad was the pastor, a typical one that is last to leave. We stopped on a channel that had a couple making out in the back seat of a car and it showed her shirt coming off. I saw boobs for the first time. I remember it vaguely like it was yesterday. Images are burned on our brains forever you know.

How does that make you feel dads? Think your boy isn’t noticing stuff?? My boy is four now and TV has gone way downhill in 25 years since I was four. I have to watch out for the Victoria‘s Secret commercial while my son is around so I can change the channel – it’s unbelievable. We can be play fighting or whatever – not even watching TV – and a commercial like that will come on and he will stop in his tracks and be glued to the TV. By the time I look up to notice what he’s looking at there is already a half naked woman in a suggestive pose. So I scurry for the remote to change the channel. What sucks is it’s too late because that image is burned on his brain forever.

Moving on… I hear parents joke about how kids “play doctor” or “show me yours and I’ll show you mine” kinda crap. I did all that too and looking back I don’t think it was funny – at all. Nobody believes that little boys do get erections – they’re little, but they’re erect. I remember nap time in kindergarten was play time for me and a little girl who had a much older sister (don’t ask me what the teacher was doing or why she didn’t stops us because I have no idea). Let’s just say the older sister had more experience than she needed (or it was an abuse situation) and the little sister had seen it. Not good – messed me up. I couldn’t understand why she wanted to kiss me there. Thank goodness she didn’t really know what she had seen her older sister doing.

Told you this is not G-rated, almost x-rated more like it. Is my story messing you up yet?

How about this – I was 12 the first time I saw hardcore porn. It was at a friends house. His mom was a hard working single mother and obviously didn’t know the influences her son was under much less the influence he was having on me. I couldn’t believe what I saw – it seemed so wrong.
I’m just thankful that kid accepted Christ at my church when we were teenagers and is one of my best friends to this day. Dad’s you think your son is too young to be affected by what he sees? I was 4 when exposed then 12 when violated – by porn.

It didn’t get any better – I was 13 the first time I had real sex. Clearly it wasn’t her first time (again – probably abused or neglected by her father). I was such a vicitm – yeah right. Just curious and naive because I had seen porn, my body was changing, and my parents probably thought I was innocent. I hadn’t done anything before – well at least not since nap time in kindergarten. I was still young and hadn’t experienced many sensations yet. I had no clue what I was doing, but I did have a condom – they’re easy to get. Anyway, It felt like I was about to pee in my pants – only I wasn’t in my pants – and it wasn’t pee. (ok I could have left that sick part out of it but it clearly illustrates that as a 13 yr old I obviously wasn’t ready for sex.) It happened so fast I couldn’t believe what all the sex-hype was about. I didn’t have sex again for about another year and a half, but something kept drawing me to the porn – a chemical reaction in my brain I guess. More on the chemical reaction in the next post.

All through my teen years I looked at porn, masturbated, and had sex with multiple girls. My dad knew it and I don’t think he knew how to deal with me about it. For a long time I wondered if he struggled with porn too or if he might have had similar experiences with girls when he was growing up. From an early age a lot of things felt wrong but my dad never really addressed any of it.

Don’t get me wrong. I don’t want to sound like I’m blaming my dad or the girlfriends or anybody else – like those kids we see on TV blaming their teachers for having sex with them. Those punks aren’t stupid. They know right from wrong. I knew too, but I didn’t know how or really why I should resist wrong and do right in that area of my life. Most men don’t. That’s why I believe books like Every Man’s Battle and Every Young Man’s Battle are so important.

Even after marriage I continued with porn and masturbation. How’s that for transparency? Guilt overwhelmed me over time (God used Perry’s transparency and convicting words of truth to help me man up) and I confessed to my wife and best friend, begging them to forgive me for my failure. I was so relieved to get that secret sin out of my life but my wife was crushed. A long and painful healing and accountability process followed that I’m sure I will talk more about in future posts. Two books were a huge part of that process – Every Man’s Battle and Every Heart Restored .

This is my story. Be it better or worse than others’ stories I don’t know. I love hearing pastors or anyone speak out on this subject openly and unafraid but I’ve yet to hear any of them tell their story this detailed. I hope the graphic details of my story strike a broader audience of women, parents, and porn viewers, because this isn’t an issue for only struggling men to be worried about. I definitely feel I’m qualified to write on this subject and however harsh my words sound please know that I’m writing from a broken but forgiven, loving, and passionate perspective. Please stop looking at porn.

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Pornography – Get Accoutability

April 27, 2007 by Leave a Comment

Where do I start? I don’t know if I’ve ever written about this on my blog before, so here it goes…

Once again I’ll mention Perry because he mentions pornography very frequently on his blog and from the stage while he’s preaching. He even wore a shirt this past Sunday that said “GOD IS WATCHING YOU DOWNLOAD THAT PORN”. It was appropriate because the message was on character and quite frankly people who look at porn do so because they have character flaws. I want to save character for another post though. I want to talk about porn right now.

This will probably be a multi-post because I could actually write a book on this subject. It used to be very difficult for me to talk about pornography because I was guilty – I was looking at it. That’s right – I used to look at porn. I’m not proud of it but I’m forgiven. Trust me I know how you feel if you’re struggling with porn. I’ve been there and I think I know what you need – aside from a good relationship with Jesus Christ.

You need accountability. You need a good friend you can trust to share your burden and hold you accountable. I know you’re dying to come clean and stop. You’ve even tried on your own several times. You can’t do it alone! Swallow your pride and share that burden. If you don’t think you have a friend you can trust that much you’re probably wrong.

There is a great book every man should read called “Every Mans Battle”. I should probably just go through that book again and post notes on here like I did for the Five Love Languages. But for now I’m just gonna wing it – from my perspective and my own memory bank of what I’ve learned. If you are struggling with porn I can tell you some things probably going on inside you right now:

  • You’re ashamed.
  • You think you’re alone.
  • You feel weak.
  • You’ve lost hope.
  • You’re in a viscious cycle.

I could do a separate post on every line of that list (maybe that’s the first five chapters of my book). What I want to get through to people who look at porn and want to stop is the fact that you CAN NOT do it alone. You have to have some accountability. Here are some quick guidelines you might use to start thinking about and selecting who you want your accountability partner to be:

  • Someone you trust.
  • Someone who understands (most men do because they’re either going through it or they’ve already been through it).
  • Someone who will share your desire to stop. It can’t be someone who is just ok with you looking at porn. It needs to be someone who doesn’t judge you, but even if you’re both struggling you share the same conviction and both want to be better so you fight the battle (share the burden) together.
  • Someone who will commit to challenge you and accept challenges from you.
  • You might need more than one.

There are so many ways to do accountability on this matter also. The internet is by far the worst porn vehicle invented by man, but it can be monitored. There are softwares out there you and your accountability partner can purchase and use to hold each other accountable. Maybe I’ll mention some specific ones in later posts. Lenny and I used a software for a long time to hold me accountable. It worked. I knew I couldn’t lie about what came up when Lenny checked that software…
Anyway… In future posts I’m going to tell more of my story concerning all this. I’m going to elaborate on the first list of bullets in this post. Who knows what all I might write. I’m probably going to mess some people up who read this. I’m probably going to refer to some books that have helped Shawna and me.
I haven’t even touched on what it does to your wife, or future wife, or what she needs to know about it to help you get through it and help you deal with the struggle from now til you kick the bucket (it never goes away – haven’t you seen dirty old men staring at young women). I’ll talk more about all this. It’s gonna take several posts to say it all and neither you nor I have time to cover it all in one day.
Have a Great Weekend.

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"Confidentiality"

April 25, 2007 by Leave a Comment

I don’t want every post I do this week to be somehow linked to Perry, but the dude was on a roll Sunday and several writing points hit me while he was speaking. One of the things he said was about peoples’ general misconception about Pastor “confidentiality”.

People think they can come and have confession with the pastor and just spill the beans about anything to get it off their chest and seek forgiveness from God. They think the pastor is bound to confidentiality like a lawyers’ client confidentiality. The TRUTH is they are not bound to keep anything confidential – especially when crime is involved. In fact they are legally bound to alert authorities anytime they gain knowledge of illegal activity. This doesn’t make it any easier on people who are sinning and breaking the law and want to confess, but just because someone wants to confess doesn’t mean they shouldn’t have to pay the consequences.

If abuse of any kind is involved they should be glad they don’t get their butt kicked before the police are called. If the person is suicidal, doing drugs, etc – they really need help. Think about a minister’s perspective – can you imagine how awful it would be to find out that somebody died the day after one of these “confidential” conversations?

I think the myth of pastor confidentiality should apply to freindships too. If someone is having an affair that crap can’t be kept confidential. People are going to be hurt no matter what in a situation like that – might as well be sooner than later. It needs to be told. I’ve seen friendships of many years ripped to shreds because of people who knew about affairs and kept it a secret. People who weren’t even directly involved torn to pieces because they lost trust in the person who should have held their friend accountable.

I could go on and on about this all day and tell a lot of stories, but I’m going to save a more specific accountability post for later this week…

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Premarital Class – 2

April 20, 2007 by Leave a Comment

I thought about just writing out the bullets from the class notes, but I won’t do that. Maybe later I’ll just do several individual posts related to the content of the class and put my weak spin on it with some stories about Shawna and I. For now I want to focus on the role I’ve been asked to do which is observe and give feedback. So here are some random thoughts I’ve been having.

Session 2
Session 2 was just as good as session 1 in terms of content. I’m not sure I’ve gotten over the thought that the message isn’t really getting through to some of the young naive engaged couples, but I’m still hopeful that it is.

One interesting thing Jake did this time was have everyone stand up and introduce themselves and tell about their first date and when they got engaged. I must say I think our story was the best first date. Couldn’t believe some of the McDonald’s and Wendy’s and dorm room movie stories for first dates. It is more common than I would have ever imagined for a couple to do something so lame on a first date. I would have never taken a girl to McDonald’s on a first date. Maybe there is more to the story and it wasn’t as lame as they told it.

Our First Date
We didn’t even tell our first date story as good as it really was. It was that mythical falling in love experience. We ate at Olive Garden then went to the Chattanooga Choo Choo and walked around before taking a horse and buggy ride through the city. After that we went to Stake n Shake for a milk shake and we just sat and talked for a long time…. It was all lovy dovy from there.

Interesting Couples
Back to the class. There are a couple of pairs in there who I can tell are more experienced and very serious about the class. They are a few years older and seem to have either more dating experience or more pain in their past. In one couples case I want to say the pain is becuase of bad dating experience. In the other couples case it seems more like there might be a divorce in one of their history or maybe they came from a broken and divorced home when they were growing up.

I don’t know these couples I’m talking about so this is pure speculation, but one of them had an obvious red flag. If I could talk to him one on one I would want to get to know him a bit to learn the situation, but somewhere in the conversation I would probably have to tell him… Dude – that woman needs your commitment. Get over your past or whatever is causing your pathetic fear of commitment and marry her or let her move on.

Surveys & Homework
Another thing that is good about the class is the take home surveys and homework for both individuals and the couples together to work on. I talked to one couple who says the surveys are tough because they reveal both your good AND BAD stuff about yourself. That’s good because once you both know each other knows your good and bad then you can start working through it.

Mine and Shawna’s premarriage counselling was primarily ONLY a survey. There was no class to lecture us on God’s purpose and plan for marriage or to show us how to communicate, handle money, and resolve conflict. Just a survey. It was a good survey but it wasn’t enough.

Maybe we should talk about the surveys in the class time. The class is scheduled for 2 hours and Jake is really trying to find how to get everthing in to the 4 – 2 hour sessions. But I think it will be important in the future to try and make some time for couples to talk about the surveys in a small group setting or with a mentor (both are ideas Jake is already thinking about). I think making it to where couples can get to know someone with some experience and talk through things with their help and guidance will be good.

Suzanne – Jake’s wife, does a wonderful job bringing the women’s perspective. She is very honest and transparent in communicating with the ladies. She pours out a ton of short thoughts and tips that in my opinion the women should be scribbling down as fast as their hands can write – Lord knows I’m writing down the man’s stuff as fast as I can. Anyway, Suzanne’s talks are very good just as Jake’s are.

One thing Suzanne said that I think is right on the money was “Some of this stuff might be more relevant to you about six months AFTER you’ve been married”. That’s what I’ve been trying to say about getting through the goo goo eyes. Some people might get it and remember in six months all the stuff they’re hearing now, but others will put the materials aside and forget all about it. I think scheduled follow ups with couples, or the idea of mentoring and accountability, or something for about a year or two AFTER marriage would be a huge plus for the “pre”marital ministry.

We’ll see how it all comes together and evolves in to another great way NewSpring does ministry.

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As a Man Thinks…

March 20, 2007 by Leave a Comment

Since I told a story that somewhat relates to this teaching last week I thought this would also be worth sharing. I didn’t write it but I’m in agreement 100% with everything the dude who wrote this has to say. I can’t remember where I got it from – just had it saved in some notes.

As a Man Thinks…

“For as a man thinks in his heart, so is he.” (Prov 23:7) What we think about predominately becomes our experience, either good or bad. It has been said many times, and I believe it’s true, that no man has committed adultery without first thinking about it – a lot. No married man just gets up one day, goes to the store to get bread, meets a woman in the bakery and breaks covenant with his wife and commits adultery that day.

The reality is the act has long been preceded with immoral thoughts which began as unsolicited suggestions that eventually were given consideration. In time, they were entertained and made welcome. Eventually, they were not just welcomed, but sought out. Those thoughts produced feelings in the realm of the heart and stirred the flesh until one day; it goes beyond thoughts to words, to glances and eventually the act he thought he would never commit. To the friends of the couple who broke up over this, they didn’t see it coming. They were shocked.

But it was inevitable. Thoughts follow input. Our heart follows our thoughts and as you probably know by now, 90% of any decision is made in the heart and motivated by emotional drivers. Let something simmer in the heart long enough and opportunity will present itself to turn into reality that which you have been giving haven to in the privacy of your inner sanctum, your heart.

I shared this example because it is real. Psychologists and marriage counselors agree this is not theoretical. It’s a fact. But there’s good news. This same process can work in the positive to dramatically impact your life for good. …..thinking the right things can produce an abundant harvest of good in our life. As a man thinks in his heart, so is he.

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Pentecostal Past

January 26, 2007 by Leave a Comment

This is continuation to say some of what was going through my mind when I saw this video.

I grew up a pentecostal preachers kid (so did Shawna), so we’re very familiar with how church can be very strange to non-believers. And there are extremes. Just compare pentecostal (screaming, running, speaking in tongues) to baptist (hymnals and boring sermons). I could care less about the “rivalry” between denominations – that isn’t the point I’m trying to make. The point is none of the “traditional” approaches and doctrines are reaching people as effectively as the new “mega”churches who are being creative to get people in the doors.

If I, having grown up in church all my life, can say that our traditional churches are strange then what the heck do people who have never been to church think?? I think about this stuff.

A gross majority of churches are so far behind the times that an un-churched person only gets a perception that they will have to become a completely different personality if they get ‘born again’. That probably doesn’t make a lot of sense so I’ll put it this way… We live in the freakin 21st century now and things have changed quite a bit, but not in most churches. People shouldn’t feel like they’re going to have to take a time warp back to the 1950’s in order to be a Christian, or that they’re gonna have to become comfortable around what seems like raving lunatics running around screaming in a language nobody understands (that’s an un-churched persons view of pentacostal – don’t judge me for saying that cause you know it’s true – I believe in gifts of the spirit too but I’m not so naive to believe humans aren’t abusing the “gift” – acting and manipulation isn’t just a hollywood thing – not everyone has a gift for acting just like not everyone receives the “gifts” of the spirit – and it doesn’t matter how hard somebody gets pushed if they aren’t meant to “receive” it). Am I preaching yet? Amen brothahh, Gloree-ahh!!

I’ve talked to people who genuinely feel drawn (led, convicted, however you want to put it) to go to church but then seem to balk at actually showing up. They begin justifying their position of not going to church by saying they feel like they shouldn’t have to change who they are. They’re being confused in to thinking that who they are is wrong rather than it being the sin they’re living in, and the church is the one sending them that message. You can live in 2007, be cool, and still be a Christian. You can be a simple spoken person and still get the message. You can dress comfortable and still participate in worship. You can, and will, make mistakes (sin) and can still be a Christian. YOU’RE FORGIVEN!!

So many people in church act like they’re perfect instead of just being real and humble about their sins. What does that say to someone who isn’t saved?? They can’t imagine being so perfect. They can’t imagine worshipping anything with that music you’re playing. And they would rather stay home and be entertained by the TV than go to a traditional church and watch the preacher entertain his dying congregation of senior citizens the same way the preacher from 6 generations ago did when the “denomination” was founded. Do you think Jesus preached the way preachers do today?? Heck no! If we did everything exactly the way Jesus did then we should be wearing very strange clothes and having church on the hillside rather than in our underfunded buildings. Well if we’re not doing it the way Jesus did then why should church be the same way today that it was 50 years ago?? I hear my pastor say it this way all the time, “Nickelodeon is spending money and being creative to get our kids attention. Hollywood is spending money and being creative to get adults attention. The church needs to spend money and get creative to get people’s attention.”

Some reading this might take offense and others of you might wonder why. Like I said, I grew up in church. My dad was a preacher, my father-in-law is still the pastor of a church, I’ve got two uncles who are preachers, my moms cousins are big-time in ministry and especially youth ministry. I’ve got family I don’t even know or remember in ministry. They may or may not agree with everything as I see it and it doesn’t matter (they probably could care less what I say anyway cause I’m not a preacher). We may not agree on methods but we agree on the same objective.

I read a great letter the other day from one of the executive pastors at my church. He was explaining to someone that we’re all on the same team. Despite all the passion and harsh thoughts I shared above I try to never forget that we’re still all on the same team. There are a lot more dads like the one in that video and we should be doing whatever it takes to reach them.

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Modernization – A Good Thing!

January 26, 2007 by Leave a Comment

All I have to say today is check out this video. This made me cry because I’m so passionate about NewSpring. I’ll never have to experience this with my own dad, but I’m so glad to be a part of something that’s making such a huge difference in other peoples’ lives.

I really have a lot more I want to say about this, so here’s what I’m going to do. Throughout the day today I will jot all my thoughts down and organize what I want to say for in the morning. There are a million things going through my mind right now. So, TO BE CONTINUED…

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"Falling In Love"

December 11, 2006 by Leave a Comment

We’re reading The Five Love Languages with our home group. It is the second time Shawna and I have read it, but the first time for some of the couples in our group. It is starting to get good in chapter 3, so I want to start sharing from there.

The book describes the “in-love” experience as an obsession that isn’t true love at all. We lose interest in other pursuits, we do things we told ourself we would never do, we think our beloved is perfect and that this love will last forever. The fact is the “in-love” experience only lasts an average of 2 years before we land our feet back on earth and realize that our mate is human and little by little we begin to fall out of the “in-love” fantasy world.

For Shawna and I the “in-love” experience was just as the book describes it – an obsession. We thought each other was perfect, we never fought, we disregarded each others history (baggage), we spent money we didn’t have traveling and buying things we couldn’t afford, we got married, took the first jobs we were offered, and moved away from family and friends to start a life of our own. Not that all of that was a mistake in my opinion. We think most everything happens for a reason and we’ve learned a lot along the way, but as far as our relationship goes we can look back on about a 2 yr period that could realistically be called obsession.

Some researchers argue that falling “in-love” isn’t real love at all for three reasons – it isn’t an act of will or conscious (if you knew how I was living at the time I met Shawna you’d know I wasn’t looking to fall in love and settle down), it is effortless (doesn’t require discipline or conscious effort, it’s almost instinctual), when we’re “in-love” we’re not interested in growth and development any longer (we have a false sense that we’ve arrived). In fact some researchers even describe the “in-love” experience as a natural component of mating behavior.

Now that I’ve totally reduced being “in-love” to being horny monkeys we’re left with the question of what to do after the obsession has ended. Well, there are basically three options: accept a life of misery with your spouse, end it and go find another obsession (unfortunately in our day and time this is what people are doing but I think it is because they don’t understand the last option), we can recognize the “in-love” experience for what it was – a temporary emotional high – and now pursue “real love” with our spouse.

The third option is better for a couple of reasons. Dating sucks is one good reason, but the real reason is because EVERYONE has an emotional need to feel genuinely loved by another (not a need to fall “in-love”), to feel a love that grows because the other person chooses to love you and sees something worth loving in you. This kind of love requires discipline and effort that both enriches the life of the one you love and your own – because you experience the satisfaction of genuinely loving someone.

So how do we meet the deep, emotional needs to feel loved? That’s what the rest of the book is for – learning the Five Love Languages and understanding how to meet your mate’s needs by speaking the love languages appropriately. I’ll post more about that later.

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The Giving Spirit

December 4, 2006 by Leave a Comment

First of all I appreciate my home group so much for everything they are doing to serve other people. We sponsored a family through one of the local ministries and divided up gift giving responsibilities. Everyone in our group was very happy to do this and did a great job buying gifts. I pray the family who receives our gifts is truly blessed. Now a couple of thoughts from me concerning this type of service and then an amazing story of the giving spirit.

The family sponsoring thing can be a good and bad thing in my opinion. I’ll say the good first…

The good thing is that the family sponsor process is so simple. You get a list of families and pick one to sponsor. All you know about them is their first names and their clothes sizes (necessity gifts) and maybe a note of a luxury gift they might want. You buy them gifts, deliver to the ministry, and the ministry delivers to the family. It’s a great way to serve a family in need and it’s extremely simple.

The bad thing is also that the process is so simple. You never get the opportunity to meet the family or form a relationship on any level. You’re only able to influence their lives with material things. Sure, when they know the gifts came from a church group they might think about God, but that material gift can’t demonstrate any other aspects of God’s love for us or all the reasons he has given us to trust him. All we have to lose is some paper with numbers on it (money) and maybe a little bit of time at the store. We don’t have to risk our emotions building a relationship with them. We don’t have to practice what we preach about forgiving people for their sins and loving them despite their faults. Buying gifts and dropping them off doesn’t require the considerable amount of time investment that it would take to build relationships with people who need you for Christ-like influence and unconditional love.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m so glad we participated in that ministry and I don’t want to discount it for anyone who doesn’t have other opportunities to serve. But our home group has been called to serve on a much more influential level. We’re building a relationship with a special needs couple and learning of ways to serve them with more than just money and stuff. We’re giving our time, overlooking their faults, and showing them God’s unconditional love. They’ve come to our church now and love it. And our God is mighty enough to do many miracles we can’t imagine in this couples lives. Not everyone in our group has had an opportunity to get involved with this couple yet, but that’s ok because it’s a process. What we’re doing in my opinion is one of the best examples of selfless giving I’ve ever been so close to, and I’m so honored to be part of the group that’s doing it.

Now back to the amazing story about the giving spirit. So we sponsored a family to buy gifts for and divided up who would buy what. One of our homegroup families chose to buy for one of the kids from the needy family. The kids in this homegroup family felt like they needed to do their part in giving to the less fortunate kid. They pitched in from their allowance but that wasn’t enough. They knew they were going to be at family Thanksgiving dinners on both sides of their family, so they decided to take up collections from both sides of the family at each dinner. When they were finished they had enough money to buy the gifts they really wanted to. That is the coolest thing ever. They felt a need (calling) to do their part, they knew they didn’t have what it took to do it on their own (had to trust God), they took the only action they knew to take (took advantage of an opportunity right in front of them), and the rest is the joy of giving a gift. When you least expect it kids will do the purest demonstrations of lessons we adults thought we really understood.

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Amen Brother Perry

November 21, 2006 by Leave a Comment

Have I told anyone that I love my pastor?? He hits the nail on the head with almost everything he says. If you are in ministry or know anyone in ministry (that would include probably everyone who reads this) then I dare you to read this blog and/or refer it to others in ministry. I double dog dare you…

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